***1ST MONTH***
Opening the confirmatory HIV result
Keeps asking "WHY ME??!?"
Over thinking of health status
Fucking scared I want to kill myself
When people around talks about "HIV" or "AIDS" and I'm like
and the conversation never ends you feel like walking out
***2ND MONTH***
More thinking...
Feeling alone
Wishing on bumping with my infector, and he'll suffer the consequences
Akward moment when HIV related thing comes up on TV while your mom is in the same room
Trying to look sexy while smiling:
Expectation:
Reality:
When your friends start looking through your stuff they might find out your meds
***3RD MONTH***
No more worries, just waking up everyday like a normal person
Joined poz twitter: Selecting the right twitter handle but
Felt like "Okay. I am not alone!!!"
Gaining friends from hub and Twitter
Same side effects of efav tho...
Trying to look okay while the side effects of Efavirenz is still in place
***4TH MONTH***
Getting memories of how I got infected with HIV
Walked in on someone I've known before at the hub.. Oops!
When a person on Twitter posted info that could be accessed by people outside the poz world
When people say bad things about people living with HIV
***5TH MONTH***
Getting nervous on next month's CD4 counting
Another major depression
Accidentally posted HIV related stuff on my original Twitter
Falling in love with a poz; FRIENDZONED
Someone I don't know said hi to me at the hub and I went like
and when he left I was like
Also, checked my bag only to find out I left medicines at home
***6TH MONTH***
CD4 went up from 196 to 454 and I was like "what?"
Then I was like
Poz friends congratulating me
People asking what I did to raise CD4 that fast
I really felt like hugging a partner
But suddenly remembering I don't have one. Forever alone.
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